I just noticed that I haven't been writing anything for 2 weeks. Time is passing by so quickly, one day is kind of flowing into the other - especially if nights are short. My baby boys are doing fine, climbing up the stairs at lightning speed and I after them. (with a little less speed acccording to my advanced age).
I wish I could train the cats to babysit. Maximum I get is the tiger cat sleeping in the babies' cots and my black lady cat mewing to them in answer when she is safely out of reach e.g. sitting on the radiator.
I never thought my life would change so completely and quite frankly, I never thought having babies is so much work. I have big problems keeping appointments. My conversation gets boring except for other moms. My clothes are always dirty (spat on, torn, peed on, sh.. on).
My hairstyle is non-existing. I carefully dyed my hair for 20 years, but stopped when I got pregnant. Even my mother asked me if this was my natural hair colour a few weeks ago. Yes, it is, mouse-brown with an increasing amount of white hair. So what???
The last clothes I bought were maternity gowns. I don't have time and peace for shopping, and the time I do spend shopping is buying nappies, baby food, baby toys, locks for the fridge, safety devices for plugs, doors, stairs ....
This sounds like complaining, but it isn't. Just letting off steam somehow. Grandmothers to help and babysit are not available (my mom is too old and mother in law lives too far away) and 2-3 hours babysitting per week is not enough to relax, but all I get.
My babies are adorable (yes, I am a proud mom) and worth every second of missed sleep and every white hair. Every single day I thank God for them and try hard to be a good mother. Somewhere I read, you don't have to be the perfect mother, you only have to be a good enough mother (or parent) for your children.....

About sleep

Babies are still asleep althoug ist's already 7.30... am dog-tired but can't sleep.

Becoming a mom with 40 has one great disadvantage - it takes you longer to recover from a sleepless night and with twins, you have sleepless nights more often than not. Sometimes I'm awake just waiting for one of them to start crying...........

When they were really small I had to adjust to a minimal amount of sleep which was really hard - and which resulted in bad temper throughout the day (ask my husband...;-(().

Now, after almost a year, it seems my body has finally accepted a lack of sleep, and of course, nights are much better than they used to be. I take a nap during the day whenever I can, but then there's no time for oither things like eating, coking, taking a bath or just sitting stupidly watching a soap on the telly (TV programme during the day is another topic worth writing about)

oops, somebody is stirring below. Should make breakfast for my boys. Crying has started alsmost instantly, so rush, mummy, rush

Why a blog?

I have decided to keep a diary - for my sons to have some fun later on when they will be able to read - and for me as well - they have turned 11 months now and I want to keep my memory fresh what#s happened in my life until now and to keep a record of future events. And yes, people arer welcome to share my "adventures" with Jonathan and Simon.